Jazzy's Blog

Reply to differences
At a certain age things come into your life you never expected. You wake up one day and your life is totally upside more than it already was. No one knows exactly what you've been through; only what you decide to tell them. Try to be encouraging, try to be supportive, try to be an adult for four teenagers who have had a hard life and you get criticized for it no matter who you talk to. Growing up feeling like the only child (only one without the same mom or dad as everyone else) is hard. dont judge me for not know what to do or how to do it when i never experienced anything like this before. Im doing the best i can. I may not have had alot of guidance growing up but what i did do was cling to someone who was about something and had something going for themselves so that i can continue in life. i tried to be as social as possible and make as many friends as i could to cope with whatever i was going through unlike some people who just want to be by themselves rather than socialize. NOT MY FAULT!!!!! Even as I got a better life moving in with other family members i still had it in my heart to move out and not come back. i wanted more....i did something about it. i didnt have anyone to guide me anywhere or tell me what to do either, but one thing i did learn from the life i have lived is to have "initiative"- something that i mentioned all so many times before. if you want something you have to go and get it. dont wait on people to have to do it for you-like what you're used to. i dont wait on people. i try to get things done myself. i knew when i turned 18 that it was time to move out. why stay home...im grown. i dont want people to take it personal but my own children will be leaving at 18 also. by that time your are grown and should have a plan in life. No one forced you to do anything, no one forced you to move, no one forced you to change your plans- it was your decision. Also, if you have someithing to say, say it. maybe that's just another thing i have learned. I used to be very timid but for what???? this may have been a difficult time for you and you may had been angry, but your definitely not the only one. i did the best i could and if you cant appreciate, didnt like it, didnt agree with how i tried to cope or do things, or felt like a charity case-your bad. Obviously i cant win for losing in this situation so ill just let it be. in order to keep my sanity i have to keep it moving just like everyone else. i never did anything but speak highly of certain people and praised them in all their efforts- but whatever. Again, response to differences....